I was finally getting around to scheduling my dermatologist appointment that had been delayed due to the pandemic restrictions. Surprisingly, I received my confirmation email the day before the appointment with a different time than I had requested. I called, and the receptionist offered an appointment 15 minutes later than the new time, but this was still not going to work as I had scheduled the appointment after my sessions for the day.
What did I do? I angrily told the receptionist to just cancel my appointment!
Well, that showed her, didn’t it? Ha! I had no appointment now!
That morning, I had woken up with a headache, was worried about a family member, and was not in a calm state of mind. I had done a 4-mile walk that morning, which didn’t help my headache or headspace. I couldn’t run due to a lingering injury, I felt left out, and I was frankly in a very bad mood.
No one on the roads was using their signals to change lanes! My old cat pooped on the couch, my website was slow and needed maintenance, and I am sure that if I had gone to HEB, I would’ve found that shoppers had left their shopping carts all over the parking lot.
All of my peeves were petted!
You can see what my frame of mind was. I was more agitated than I had been in a very long time. Going through my coaching program and ongoing coaching has done wonders for my ability to reset my emotions and perspective. Learning to control agitation and frustration is a huge part of what coaching helped me to do. Yet, here I was having a complete relapse!
Nothing I did helped. The walk didn’t, praying and meditation didn’t, and I just wanted ice cream. I don’t even eat ice cream!
What the heck was wrong with me? What was keeping me from using all of the tools I had used previously to keep myself together?
Honestly, I have no idea.
Ultimately, I had to simply allow myself to be in a negative headspace and accept it. I was in a bad mood! Horrors! It wasn’t the end of the world, and it didn’t mean that I was a failure as a coach or a bad person. I was just having a human bad day.
Fortunately, I don’t have those very awful days very often—in fact, this was the first time in four years that it was this bad!
I called a friend who just happens to be a coach, read a book in which I could escape for a bit, and went to sleep. The next morning, I was fine; my headache was gone and I felt much better. The stressors remained, the family issues remained, and no, I still didn’t have a dermatologist’s appointment. However, these were all issues I could handle in my improved state of mind.
What was my takeaway from that very bad day? To show myself the grace and patience that I offer to others in my life. To let go of the self-judgment I felt because of my intense, negative feelings. Having an off day isn’t the end of the world, though it may feel like it!
That’s it. That’s the story. I am sharing this because maybe you are having one of those days, too. It’s ok. This too shall pass. Don’t judge yourself. You’re human, you have feelings, and sometimes they are very intense. Your peeves will get petted.